The Deep End
As many of you know, my debut album ‘The Deep End’ has been finished for quite some time. I made it with some incredibly talented people. Val Garay, Nic TenBroek, the late Andrew Gold and Bonnie Hayes did a tremendous job at Producing and all the musicians were absolutely world class. (Russ Kunkel, Leland Sklar, Bob Glaub, Viktor Krauss, Bonnie Hayes, Waddy Wachtel, Andrew Gold to name a few). Also what a gift to work with such amazing songwriters: Jack Tempchin (‘Peaceful Easy Feeling,’ ‘Slow Dancin’) Erik Kaz (‘Love Has No Pride’), Bonnie Hayes (‘Have a Heart’) and J.D. Souther (‘New Kid In Town’, ‘Heartache Tonight’).
But alas, as so often happens in life, things just didn’t go as planned and in the end for various reasons, I’m sorry to say it seems it’s not going to be released.
My heart is a bit broken I admit. I’ve been going through a kind of grieving process… that album is like my baby… I put my heart and soul into creating it for years… I had so many grand dreams for it (as did many people) and it’s deeply sad to let it go. It brings to mind the Ralph Waldo Emerson quote “Life is a journey, not a destination.” It’s so true. Here I am, not experiencing the destination I’d hoped for, but feeling so deeply grateful for the journey. Wow I learnt so much. I was a baby when I started it… young, naïve, hopeful, excited… and though when I first realized it wasn’t going to work out with the label, I went through a period of feeling jaded and burnt out, I now feel so much stronger, accepting the reality of the situation and appreciating all that I’ve learned. I feel like I’ve had the best education ever: creatively, personally and professionally.
I find myself inspired and lit up again. Excited about my new songs and the EP I’m about to start making. Lots of doors are flying open and the coolest part is I’ve found me in the midst of all of this. I’ve found a deeper sense of who I am and what I want to express and I feel more in command of my craft. I have much more of a backbone too!! I won’t be making the same mistakes that’s for sure and there’s SO much more creativity where that came from.
So… here I am, saying goodbye to the old and embracing the new. Can’t wait for you all to hear my new stuff and I’ll keep you posted with updates as I move forward!!
X Bonnie